Went back to the OBs office again, since with TWO babies I had lots of questions. Since my first appointment, I was supposed to make a high-risk appointment with the Maternal Fetal Medicine Specialist (MFM) at the big hospital downtown. Due to my mixed connective tissue disease, we were going to need extra monitoring due to the increased risk of miscarriage and stillbirth associated with one of the clotting factors i have in my blood. I hadn't made that appointment yet, which the OB wasn't thrilled about, but I reassured her that I wanted to make sure the babies were okay before I went making more appointments (at this point i knew they were okay, so my excuses weren't very good).
She answered all my questions, but then asked me a question I NEVER saw coming
"Has anyone ever told you you have a bicornuate uterus?"
"Um... no, why?! Do I?!"
"The radiologist seems to think you have one... although he seems to think everyone has one. It just means you might go into early labor"
"Oh, okay"
A bicornuate (2 horns) uterus is a birth defect where the uterus doesn't develop correctly and each half fuses together into a heart shape. Basically this is the only info I have from my OB/Gyn notes (because it is sooooooooooo rare).
Well, my brain takes longer to process these types of things, so forgive me for panicking late. BUT HOLY CRAP!!!! Twins already come early, so now you're telling me my early babies are going to be super early? I came home and began to frantically research this. not enough room for babies. growth restriction. early birth. stillbirth. only documented case of term twins in bicornuate uterus? WHAT??? ONLY????
I was crying as i tried to hang onto ANY bit of positive reassurance the vast internet could possibly give me. I couldn't find much. (Let me remind you... I am my own worst nightmare.) I was absolutely panicking. Mark had to listen to my panic attack out-loud and finally lost it, yelling "IF YOU DON'T STOP SEARCHING RIGHT NOW AND GO TO BED..."
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